You have to see it from the other side of the coin, Dannan.
I am the opposite to you & as a result my life is a misery.
I trust nobody! I don't give anybody a chance. I will always be the same & I don't think I will ever change.
I send people through a million hoops & test them to breaking point. Even when they pass, I still push them away.
Just carry on being you. I'd give anything to think the way you do Dannan.
Awwww I Be Sorry You Feel Like Your Living Life Is A Misery (((((Hugggs)))) xxx
And You Can Truly Never Think That Your Life Wi ll "Never" Change Even Though It Be Feeling That Way For A Long Time And Still Now To You Devon And You May Even Think Its Easy For Me To Say That Because Im Not You And I Dont Know What It Feels Like Etc Etc Etc But Believe Me I Truly Be Understanding Of How You Feel And Totally Get What You Say I Truly Do Because For Some Life Is Not Easy ...Every New Born Day Is Not Just Another Day Its Another Battle ..Its A Battle To Get Through Its A Battle With Our Hearts Minds Bodies Spirits Etc A Never Ending "Tug O War" We Pull In And Then We Get Pulled Back Out ..We Close Our Minds As Well As Our Doors ..And Dance The Dance Of The "Hoop" And Still There Is No Peace In Our Hearts Minds Bodies And Spirit Sadly....So I Do Truly Understand Devon I Truly Do xx
I Do Not Know What Life Has Done To You Or How Others And Things Have Treated You Devon Cos That Be Your Footsteps That Have Wandered Through Your Lifes Story But Usually When Anybody Feels How You Do And How Life Is For You And The Way You Live It Is Sadly Because You/They/Anybody Have Sadly Been Very Sadly And Very Badly Hurt:( Normally By The Hands Of Another And You Or Anybody Have Lost So Much Been Hurt So Much And Been Broken So Much In Heart Mind Body Spirit Often By Trusting Another ..And That Trust Being Broken In The Most Hurtful Terrible Way And Usually It Is Because You Or Anybody Had Given Your Trust And Put That Trust Into Someone Or Something Often By Being Fooled..Tricked ..Sucked In..Etc Etc Led To Believe That Person Or Something Would Never Break Your Trust Ever Ever..
But Sadly In This World Too Many People And So Many Things Find It Be Very Easy To "Break Your Pure Given Freely Trust" And Instead Sadly And Heartbreakingly
"USE AND ABUSE AND BREAK" You And Your Given Purely And Freely TRUST...
So You..Me..Anybody Then "Close Down..Shut Out..Etc Etc All And Everything And Anybody" And Refuse To Ever GIVE Our TRUST To Another Or Thing Or Anybody Etc" We Test..We Lay Traps We Dance Hoops And Make Them Hoop Dance .Etc Etc Etc Because We Cannot Go Through Broken Trust EVER Again..We Cannot Give Trust Ever Again ..Because We BELIEVE/THINK/And Tell Ourselves "IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN" And We Can Never Go Through That Broken Trust Ever Again Etc"
Even Though They Pass Our Tests And Dance The Hoops And Get Through Our Traps ..You/We/Us /Anybody Still Believe And Think And Tell Ourselves That "We Know They Will Break Our Trust As Some Point Or In Some Time Of Times Etc" So For You/Us/All/Many Etc It Be That We TRULY Believe That Its For The Best And Had To Be Done Because Its SAFER/BETTER/GOT TO BE Etc Etc Etc Because Otherwise Our Trust Will Be Broken AGAIN So We Got To Protect Ourselves ..Not Give Our Trust .So We .Push Anybody And All That We Let In For A Short While AWAY Because We Think Its SAFER/BETTER ETC That Way Even Though Our Living Life Is Sad..Lonely .Miserable ..We Must And Need To Do It And Live That Way ..
And That Devon Is How Sadly Many And Maybe Even You Think And Feel And Awaken Up Every New Born Day From Sunrise To Sunset Sadly
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Because They And Maybe Even You Devon Have Been Teached And Learned To Think And Feel That Way Sadly By Life Because Life Has Been So Painful And Hurtful And So Cruel Sadly
So Its Easier To Push Away And Shut Out Life And Its People Than To Be "Trust Broken Again" EVER..To Even Those Who Have Danced Hoops And Passed Your Traps And Tests Because You Cannot Unlearn And Unteach At This Time Or Time What Life Sadly Has Teached You And Engraved And Scarred In And On Your Heart Mind Body Spirit Sadly.
Because You/They/Anybody Etc Have Not Healed Yet Because You Cannot Accept That You Will EVER Heal Because You Think That You Are Scarred And Teached And Learned That Snd Broken For Life And Always..
Because You Cannot Let Go..Set Free. OF "FEAR" Because To You "Fear Is Good..Because It Protects You From All And Everything And Keeps You Safe From Having Your Trust Broken And Stops Anybody Using And Abusing You And Breaking You ..Etc Etc So You Push Push Push Away Until Nothing But Emptyness And Left With Wishful Thoughts Of How You Wish You Or Anybody Can And Could Ever Trust Again And Let People Into Your Life Ever Again..So You Become Sad And Miserable Instead Even Though You/They Wish Did Not Feel Miserable With Nobody In Your Life Because You Push Everything And Everyone Away ..
Because FEAR Has Made You Believe That "ITS GOOD And SAFER" To Be Controlled By It Sadly And Now Its So Hard To Let FEAR Go Because FEAR Is SAFE To You And Anybody ..
When In Fact Devon FEAR Is BAD ..FEAR Is NOT Your Friend Or Protector And Fear Is NOT TRUST All FEAR Does IS CONTROL YOU AND STOP YOU AND OTHERS FROM LIVING .
AND BELIEVE ME DEVON I TRULY KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE CONTROLLED BY FEAR NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WANTED TO BREAK FREE AND LET GO AND SO I TRULY UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL AND TO HAVE MY TRUST BROKEN IN THE MOST TERRIBLE OF WAYS (((HUGGGS))) XX
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